today is march 12...and something about today is that it has been 6 days short of 4 months since my car accident.
i have had some moments today...some moments that have reminded me just how very lucky i am to be sitting here able to write this...i'm pretty sure it isn't everyday that people can flip cars on freeways going 65 miles per hour and live through it...let alone be totally fine.
most days i manage not to think about it anymore, at least not in the way that caused me to wake up short of breath in the middle of the night...also the rain has been much less lately so when i drive to work in the mornings i don't often hear that sloshing water spray under the bottom of the car that instantly causes my heart to skip a beat and nervous anxiety to rush through my whole self.
today however is one of those days...one of those days i am forced to toss my hands in the air and thank god for not taking me that morning.
apparently i still had more things to do...more people to meet...more friends to make...more lives to touch...and for that no words can explain how grateful i am. i really am not sure what purpose that morning was meant to serve but i do know that it has opened my eyes to life. cherishing moments, being random, loving, taking advantage of every opportunity, looking for the good in all situations, enjoying the small things...
too often people are caught up in the routine that is life...distracted by the daily activities of work, stress, family, what's for dinner, laundry, who isn't calling you back, what time to leave so you won't be late for the meeting, game, movie, practice, test, rehearsal, flight...stop...just stop...breathe in...breathe out...and remember that we are given one life. one shot. one chance. one body. one time...just one...one that can be ended at any split second of any day of any month of any year...and as hard as you try to control when that one life may end...ultimately it is out of your hands. so make the most of it...value every moment...for each one is precious.
so today hug someone new, laugh at something, play dress up and take silly pictures, drive to your friends house with a flower and surprise them, send an email to someone you haven't talked to in a long time, have a dance party in the middle of the safeway parking lot to "apple bottom jeans and boots with the fuuuuuurrr", go buy a super soaker and have a water fight, give something to someone, pray, sing your favorite song at the top of your lungs holding a brush as a microphone in front of your mirror...be random...take a step away from your routine and enjoy life because you only have one shot at it...and you never know when it may end...so i'll end totally cliche and say...cherish all moments. try to live each one as if it were your last. it's important.